I don't even know what I'm going to end up writing. I'm probably going to delete this later.
It's 1 am. I've finished an entire bottle of wine tonight, so I'm kinda tipsy. I've been watching 13 Reasons Why, and I'm all up in my feelings. I just finished episode 11. Clay's tape. I'm not sure if I can keep watching.
I was so glad to be done with high school. i graduated in 2004. Almost thirteen years ago. I had almost no friends in my classes. One of my best friends and I fell apart junior year, and didn't become friends really again until I was 22. Another friend and I stopped talking, over a stupid guy, spring of senior year. Most of my other friends were in all honors and AP classes, and I wasn't smart enough to be with them.. Or they were younger than me, so we didn't have classes together. Or they were at other schools. I was so lonely. But at the same time, I didn't want anybody to notice me. I would sit not in the front row, but not in the back either. I could go for days in my classes, without saying anything. And nobody noticed. I just felt invisible.
I wasn't like Hannah. I wasn't suicidal. But this show, is much harder for me than the book was.
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